As I continue in this season of change, I’m noticing that lately I’m feeling a bit out of sorts at times. I’ve been asking myself why that is. Most of my recent changes have been ones that I’ve initiated. I’ve wanted some of them for a very long time and just recently took steps to make the changes. So, if I wanted these changes, then why am am I out of sorts? There are also some changes that just happened due to a normal course of events. Finally, some of the changes happened whether I wanted them to or not. With all of these variations for the causes of the current changes in my life, what is it that has me out of sorts?
Today, I think I just began to realize what it is that is bothering me. I’ve had a fairly set schedule for much of the last 12 years. The changes in my life have started to accumulate so that now my schedule is not nearly as set as it used to be and it probably won’t be for quite awhile because I know of even more changes coming in the next year.
That settled place that I was in while my kids were growing up and in school was comfortable for me. I knew what to expect and what I needed to do. In this current unsettled place that I’m in, I don’t usually know what to expect and I’m still trying to figure out what I need to do. This can lead to those uncomfortable feelings.
I’m currently in that messy middle part where I’m not quite sure where all of this change is leading but I’m also no longer where I was even 9 months ago. I can’t go back but I’m not finished with this round of change and I’m still moving forward. This is where it can be uncomfortable. I’ve not quite figured out how to ‘be’ where I am right now and where I’m heading. So, this means that some days I’m irritable or unsure. I’m questioning whether I’m on the right path and I’m deciding whether these changes are working for me in the long term.
I’m a very different person because of some of these changes and now I’m figuring out how to fit ‘me’ into my life. I know that I’ll settle into this new version of me and that it will just take a bit of time. But, it may be uncomfortable for awhile to come.
The question is how do I begin to settle into this new and still changing version of myself? What I’ve found to support me the most throughout this season of change, is to continually check in with my own body. Taking time for my own yoga practice (whether it’s active or passive doesn’t matter), going outside and spending some time in the sun and in the woods, and just sitting and noticing what I feel in my body are some of my favorite ways to check in. I know that by doing this on a consistent basis, I can reconnect with what is important and reaffirm what I want to do in this life that I have.
The uncomfortable times will still be there, but I can learn to accept this discomfort so that I can then make choices about what I want to do about it. Maybe, this discomfort is telling me that I’ve not quite found the right path? Maybe it’s just letting me know that the changes are happening and I need to settle in for the ride as I figure all of this out?
The only way that I can really know the difference is if I take the time to actually listen to what my body’s wisdom is telling me about my current situation. And, the only way that I can deeply listen to my own body’s wisdom is to take some quiet time to reflect on what’s happening in my life and then wait for that wisdom to appear. It always does, but I have to be ready to listen. When, I’m not ready that discomfort that can come with my season of change will just continue.
My choice is to take that time to listen inward. My own body’s wisdom will tell me the answers that I seek about my current path. I just have to remember to schedule this quiet time on a regular basis and that’s what I plan on doing. I’ll pull out my calendar and find the time that I need to listen inward. I’ll schedule it in just like I schedule everything else. That way I don’t overlook or forget it!
Have you noticed discomfort in your life when change is happening? How do you deal with it? Try listening inward and see if that changes anything. I’d love to hear your thoughts! Leave me a comment below.
If you’d like assistance in learning to listen to your own wisdom, then schedule a session with me. You’ll be glad that you took the step to better understand what you need and want out of life by listening inward again!